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| i know noone reads these, but i like to find quotes && i dont have anywhere to put them except on here...haha so yeah..i dont really care.
i guess its time to run far, far away ( find comfort in pain )
 
 
 True love is when you stay up until four in the morning, writing a letter
that you will never let them see
sometimes you have to tell yourself;
the things you need to hear
I'm completely unconnected.
Constantly rejected.
Like everything I've ever loved is coming down.
I'm drowning in emotion.
In the middle of the ocean.
Never knowing when it's over and I'm going down.
That's how I feel.
Then you see me.
Say you don't even know me
she's just a stupid girl.
who sets her hopes too high.
he's just a stupid guy.
who doesn't know what's in front of him
I don't want anyone else to
get the chance to realize
how amazing you are
She knows she could never be good enough for you.
But for some reason, she tries anyway.
& slowly as the days go by,
you lose friends, you never
thought you would
She looks away & smiles
Pretending she doesn't care
she keeps her secrets
tries to hide her past
because everything lately
has gone away way too fast
I think she did what she
had to do to find happiness
i`ll never be over you.
i`m just getting a little better
at hiding the tears, and the
emptiness inside. and if you
asked me what i missed the
most in life i`d say it was you
m y . o n e . & . o n l y
you’d never guess a girl
so happy on the out side.
is breaking down on the inside.
a girl who laughs her head off everyday in school
you’d never guess she’s covering up
the million tears behind her smile
I want someone who won't care that I hate wearing shoes,
that I'm incapable of sitting still,
that i can't grasp the concept of cleaning,
and I refuse to be ladylike.
Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make are usually ones that I regret,
and I have the right to overreact at any given moment.
I want someone who knows I'm completely insane
and wouldn't want me any other way
She's that pretty little girl,
with the pink sweater and polka-dotted ribbon,
the one whose perfect life hides so much
unacknowledged pain.
She hides it well, don't you think?
Behind every smile, with every blink,
Falls a tear so cold && hurt.
With every whisper, every look.
No questions asked,
Why or how.
They never cared.
Then && now,
She hides it well
remember. remember when we were best friends. when we would go to each others houses every night? remember when we knew exactly what the other person was thinking? remember when we would take those long walks? the ones where we really wouldn't have a destination, but it was still fun. cus it was just the two of us. remember all the times we had sleepovers..or girls nights in? all the sad movies we watched together, crying. & all the scary movies we watches, screaming at all the same parts. remember laughing so hard that our stomachs hurt? & getting up early just to see the gates open at the mall. remember all our inside jokes, all our memories & all our secret messages? do you remember getting ready together just listening to music. or just dancing around to the music? remember the long days & our crazy talks? or our long talks & crazy days? do you remember all those times we went to the mall together, or to the movies? remember all our fights we had, but we always ended up okay. cus we were best friends. remember that I will always be there for you. & that you were the best friend I have ever had do you remember that? that we were best friends? ---haha so me && my girl ossa<3
did you know that her favorite color is pink
or that she's terrified of the dark - that she
can't sleep without the bear right next 2 Her
[ or ] everytime she thinks of you she smiles
she doesn't want to care for anyone.. b|c she
thinks it's just a way of getting hurt `& did
u know she hates arguing but is good at it -
that she hates to go a day w|out talking 2 u
did u know she loves the way u look at her?!`
or that she findss it crazy' that people can
say one thing but totally feel another wayy
open up your eyes [ she loves you ]
 
im not ready
to just foget about you
not ready
to just let you go
im not ready to just
-stop loving you-
but baby don't worry
i wont succeed anyway
^^ i wrote that.
goodnight.
CRUSHiiNG BADLY<3
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&& i dont want to speak these words
because i know they will only make things worse
why does tonight have to end? why dont we hit restart
&& pause it at our favorite parts we'll skip the goodbyes
just you && I
this is where i say, i've had enough
&& well.. i can't take it anymore
you're not who you thought you were,
it's time to see the other side
of what you have become
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me...
put the lies down,
let's hear you say
what you really mean
& the worst thing about being lied to is
knowing you're not worth the truth <3
Sometimes, at night.. when i can't sleep, i just get this weird feeling. That maybe, (one day), i'll be happy again. Like being sad for a few nights wont even matter in my future. Maybe one day, i'll be happy enough to get a new guy & not have my voice crack when we bring you up in a conversation. Just maybe..
 im in the middle
 ilovehertodeath<3
 glam girl<3
 im in the hott pink dress<3
more to come later<3
 omgg cuttieee this picture makes me smile.hah
 me&&my best friiend! : ]
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| && I'm still going to stand
here waiting for you no
matter how long it takes
for you to come.
I can tell you want some company
But I can't fix you
And you don't want me
She may be confused about a lot of things..
but she knows that the only time shes truly
happy is when she is with him
there's a line of black water coming from her eye
he's won now it's not a tie
she always said she didn't care and she was strong
i guess now it's proven that she was dead wrong
he got the best of her and didn't care
they're right when they say life's not fair
just a short and simple conversation
bettween u and her .. it's just enough to make her
fall even more in love with youu. </3
Sometimes you need to put the past behind.
The saddest aside.
You need to forget everything you ever felt.
Your feelings. Your thoughts.
Everything that was ever there.
Because you can't get hurt if you don't care.
But it sure is lonely all by yourself.
He has no idea what goes on through her mind.
She's so good at pretending.</3
just tell me it's tearing you apart
please, just tell me it's keeping you
from falling asleep at night.
i never thought i would risk the chance of
getting hurt again .. but for some reason
w h e n i m w i t h y o u .. i t a l l s e e m s w o r t h i t
you`re the reason why i smile
yet break down & cry
you`re the reason why i still keep going
&& the reason why i fall
because without you in my life
i`m nothing at all
take love and multiply it by infinity
& take it to the depths of forever
& you`ll still only have a glimpse
of how much i love you<3
i used to be a strong girl, a lot has changed, a lot has happened, and ive had to deal with so much more then any person should ever have to go through, and you know something? i finally broke, everything around me crashed and i fell right with it, and im not that strong anymore, i cant handle this anymore...
you tell yourself over and over again that it isnt worth it
that it could never last
that the friendship could be ruined
but everytime he calls you
you wonder if this will finally be
the phone call when he says what you want him to
and everytime you look into his eyes
you're gone again
I'm not the girl that runs up
to you when I see you
[&&] I'm not the girl who
jumps at every moment
to talk to you but I'm the girl
who keeps it all inside
and regrets it all later
why are you with her?
she doesnt love you
near as much
as i do
I tried to take the pain away by finding someone new,
but then I realized no one compared to you.
& even if I look around pretending not to cry,
I'll always go back to the day you finally said "goodbye."
i always keep bumping into you ;
everywhere i go i find you.
why? maybe this could be fate's
way of bringing us together or
maybe fate's just rubbing the fact
that i can't have you in my face
when am i going to
understand && accept
the fact that it`s over.
over. O - V - E - R.
such a simple word,
that i can`t comprehend.
i think the worst five words
in the english language are ;
` i - don`t - love - you - anymore
When you love someone,
& you love them with all your heart,
it never disappears.
When you're apart, & when you love someone
& you've done all you can do, you set them free,
& if that love was true..when you love someone
it will all come back to you
[[ so i look at all these beautiful girls ]]
as a tear runs down my cheek
because i wish you could just look at me
as one of them && realize that i have
more feelings for you than they ever will <3
maybe i could give up on you ; maybe i could stop. move on with my life, & maybe i can get over you ; but maybe you can fall in love with me & maybe you can realize what you are in my eyes, & maybe, just maybe you can love me too <3
We can't be together, you deserve someone so much better than me, and you know it, and it kills me that you know it. I can't handle being in a relationship ... constantly scared that you're going to find that someone who you deserve.
Admit it. We flirt with each other. We have so much fun with each other.
We laugh with each other, and we even try to be with each other.
I believe that we secretly love each other, but how come
when I think of you and wonder if you're thinking of me, I have no clue?
oh well..
<//3
he's with her
im crying over him
hes happy with her
all i can do
is fake a smile
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| im just stupid<//3 so im updating
sometimes it seems that
the going is just too rough
and things go wrong
no matter what i do
now and then i feel
that life is just too much
but you've got the love
i need to see me through
No matter how you push me or reject my love, i will still bring
you along cause I want you to be by my side forever.
If you and I aren't meant to be together,
Then I don't know anything anymore.
a thousand words,
but none were spoken,
guess there's nothing left to say..
another dream just broken,
guess things just turn out that way.
i don't think you're leaving.
i think you're running.
& what i can't figure out is;;
are you running towards
something you want?
or are you running away from
something you're afraid to want?
you look. he looks. you walk away
wondering if your look had the same
affect on him that his did on you
I don't want to be here anymore
I don't want to make the mistakes I always make
I don't want to hurt the people I tend to hurt
I don't want to continue to get hurt
I don't want to screw everything up again
I just... I don't want to be here anymore
I hate this, I've never felt worse in my life. I need to talk to someone but no one would understand.. I'm feeling completely alone and it's not like I have anyone to turn to anyway.. I guess I'm just at a point in my life where I honestly don't know what to do with myself.
i don't know what love is, but when i'm with you, i feel like the safest person in the world. i forget about everything else. nothing else matters.. it's about the here && now ;; && when you leave, it's a waiting game.. because all i want is the next day i get to see you. && that's the reason i keep on going everyday ;; in hopes that today is the next day i get to spend even one minute with you.. so if this isn't love, it should be, because it's the best thing in the world..
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